I am at work and I am totally bored.  I have run out of things to search for on the internet, which is a bad sign.  On the plus side I am going to the Bohemian tonight for some really good garlic fries. 

Ryan makes fun of me for wearing my moccasins, but I like them is that such a crime.  I think he was damaged though.  He told me that he used to wear moccasins but then the guys at his work made fun of him.  Also we got cool Nextel Walkie-Talkie cell phones.  Today Ryan emailed me and asked me to go pick up some lunch and come eat with him just so when I was at the store I would get him on the walkie-talkie to find out what he wanted to eat.  What a nerd.

Anyway my new cell number is 801.509.0124.  Don't call until after 7 though, cause it is free.  I miss everyone and I hope everybody had a good christmas.  Ryan got me a food processor, the magic bullet.  I am pretty excited, now I can get back into my raw foods plan.  Which I did for a while and then stopped because I needed to process too many things that I couldn't do by hand.  I got Ryan ski stuff, and I made all of our family hot cocoa.  So overall it was a good christmas lots of family but I decided a need a vacation now.

I am considering starting my own informal dance class.  I have been looking for an adult modern or expressive dance class.  All I can find are company dance classes for company dancers.  There are no classes for adults in the community, unless I want to take a belly dancing or salsa class.  Which I wouldn't mind but thats not something I want to do on a continual basis.  I wouldn't want to teach technique or anything I just want to explore movement with people again.  I could facilitate something like that.  I did find a contact improv class but it was down town at wierd hours. 

Now that I am a CNA I'm working on getting my personal trainer certificate.  Soon enough I will be able to find a better job.

I saw two people die on Saturday at the nursing home that I am doing my clinical.  Although I will be working as a CNA for a little,  this class has definantly made me more interested in human rights rather than health care.  Human rights in unsuspected places like the nursing home your grandmother is in.  I feel like most people see the blatant human rights violations in 3rd world countries but what about the many facilites around the country that for the most part go unnoticed.  There are some agencies that oversee the safety of the residents but that does not stop workers from not following the rules and mistreating these residents.  These agencies can only do what they can until the consciousness of Americans is focused on the lives of people right here in America that cannot take care of themselves as in the elderly, the disabled, and most often the poorer out of the two groups.  I have to say I am tired of our society and the way we treat people. 

It is not just the way we treat just the elderly or disabled although they often get the force of the mistreatment.  But we are mean to each.  Compassion is gone. 

I am half way done completing my CNA training.  Then I can go work in the lovely health care profession, for a little while at least.  I did my first clinical at a nursing home.  I was just really disgusted at almost everything that I saw. 

My ultimate goal is to run a wellness clinic. I would like to incorporate dance into peoples daily lives.  So once I am done with my CNA I will be starting a personal trainer and nutritional wellness course followed by exercise specialist for seniors and special needs as well as post rehab specialist.  They are all certificate courses but it will help me get going and out of this rut I have been in since my tumor. I have decided to get my associates as a physical therapy assistant.  Once that is done I want to attend Evergreen community college in WA to get by bachelors in expressive arts.  Then I can start thinking about my masters and owning my own business.

Anyway back to the nursing home.  It was dingy and the nurses were mean and I guess I was just grossed out.  So I am kinda thinking along the lines of going into the nursing homes and running activites for seniors once I get to that point and training for my RNA as soon as I can.  I am more interested in seeing people heal then maintaining a miserable existance.  Anyway I know I don't update often so I thought I would let every one who still reads this know how I am.

Ryan and I are still together and happy.  We are trying to get ready to move to Washington in about a year or so.  There is not much else going on.  I have been working full time at a boring job for the last year and it has just been recently that I have felt ready to start my life again.  I miss all my PA friends and every one I met in PA but are not living there anymore.